I Used To Be Able To Look You In The Eye

I'm almost there, but I'm never close.
What reality is and what I believe
to be real can not compare.
I'm nearly awake at 3 am
wondering whats next.

I'm scared, hopeless, yet volatile.
Just ready to burst at any moment.
Time and space are colliding.
Change will happen, will we be ready?
Am I ready?

I shut my eyes and I see the best.
I open them...and I see the worst.